For one thing, there's X-Men Origins - Wolverine, which I find is a pretty mediocre movie with some erotic scenes. (I mean the ones with blades in them.) I'd like to read movieverse fanfic... did anyone already stumble over some?

More importantly, I wanted to finally change my journal's style, only to discover that all the styles I like are based on Flexible Squares, which apparently can't be transferred to DW (copyright issues?). Or can it? I'm so tired, I can't read through all those help pages and comms, and tomorrow there's studying. (Recently I've been getting tired before 1 AM almost every day. Maybe I'm growing up.)
Any ideas on how I could import those custom styles based on Flexible Squares? Or maybe where I can find a layout like this one?

I know there are far too many parentheses in this entry. (But I don't care.)

ETA: Found an okay layout... but it seems like some millimetres at the top don't show. Do you see the dots on the Ä? If not, oh glorious CSS cracks of my flist, what can I do to fix it and get my Ä?
Plus, how do I get the tag list out of my sidebar?
You know, I used to have a vague idea how to do this, but I forgot it all. *sigh*
The question above still stands.

ETA 2: Now I get the "user names don't show up on reading page" problem, but when I follow the instructions here, the layout layer reports compiling errors.
I'm stupid. *sighs again* *goes to sleep*

This entry was originally posted at http://lenija.dreamwidth.org/108212.html. Please comment there using OpenID.

I feel like I should say something about Dreamwidth. Everyone is writing meta on how they feel having moved here, guides on how the new features work, thoughts about how the subscribe/grant access function will affect everyone's view of the former friendslist...

Whenever I start something new, I need to go meta about it, explore how the new environment/ way of communication/ theoretical concept,... affects my thoughts, feelings and abilities. Usually I come late to new communities or technologies, so I often feel left alone with my desire to "talk about what we're doing here". This time I'm there almost from the beginning, and although I have too much other stuff on my mind to dive as deeply as I would like to into the world that is Dreamwidth, and although I'm still not creative enough to contribute something useful, I'm growing into this new space quite easily - because everyone is talking about what they're doing and experiencing a great deal. It calms me.

Still, a big part of my just wishes I could write filtered entries right now.(Yeah, I know, I can write filtered entries. It's just that many of my LJ friends aren't here yet, and this small filter I created for a time like this is empty.) My personal life is behaving unpredictably and scares me. Spring 2009 seems to be a good time for everything and nothing.

On two nights this week I dreamt about Merlin. No idea why, it's not like I read a lot of fanfic these days or rewatch episodes. One dream was an adventurous Mary Sue fic, the other was Arthur/Merlin. Those were the two nights I slept well and actually felt well-rested when I woke up. Which tells us that Merlin apparently is helpful medicine when you're under strain.

I want to write something, but as usual I have no idea what. Whiny poetry, probably. ;)



(Be heroic!) <-- This means you can leave a comment, you know.

Because I was inexplicably lucky (kind of typical for me), an invite code landed in my inbox yesterday. So I'm posting for the first time from my shiny new Dreamwidth account.

From now on I will be posting to Dreamwidth and crossposting to LJ (but not to IJ, sorry guys). Comments will be kept to Dreamwidth only. That shouldn't pose a problem for any of you; you can comment there with OpenID, for example with yourusername.livejournal.com, and anonymous comments are permitted, too.

If you're already on Dreamwidth, don't de-friend me on LJ yet. I'm still getting used to everything and might get confused with crossposting, or forget, and in exeptional cases filtered content might still land on LJ. Defriend me on LJ when Dreamwidth open beta has started.

For those of you on LJ/IJ who don't know much about Dreamwidth and why anybody should move there, these posts might be interesting to you:

schattenstern: Dreamwidth - What it is and why I will be moving there

helens78: Why Dreamwidth? Because sheep are awesome.

I hope to see many of you here soon.


(be heroic!)

Nono, I'm not really here. You're imagining things.

To be honest, I felt weird without access to the internet as soon as I was in S. and away from other action. It's scary. I don't like it when I find myself showing symptoms of addiction.
Well, I borrowed my mother's computer temporarily and am trying to cut down my computer time instead of not being online at all.

Merlin fandom is not that good for me. Because it is such a young fandom I thought I could actually keep up with things, but there's so much fic, meta, communication going it that looking at one of the comms already overwhelms me. I'm a slow reader, and I have other things I want to do. Plus, I want my own access to the series, my own reading, and I'm letting other people's talk influence me far to much. It will spoil my fun if I'm not careful.

All of this probably is just a symptom, too - it shows that I'm taking fandom too seriously. ( introspection )

I went to the isLove Generator; it gave me a most interesting love bar.

existentialism is love
brought to you by the isLove Generator

I could probably write another master's thesis in philosophy about this one. ;) But oh, it is so very fitting for me.

Now, the real reason for the seemingly narcisstic post of narcissm is an altrustic one: (haha) Dragon Egg wants to grow up.


PS: My cats! My cats came back from their holidays! Joy! *hugs the cats*

I'm way to tired to write an even remotely reasonable entry, but my dragons grew up and I have two new eggs that need views. So I'll have to talk about something in order to conceal the true purpose of this post.

The best choice of things to talk about would of course be Merlin, not only because it is so very brilliant, but also because I need proof that I've been there at the early days of the fandom. If I don't contribute, how will I be able to say "I started watching Merlin shortly after the third episode aired for the first time", showing off in front of the hundreds of young newcomers who are going to search for fic in five years time? You know, like me. I always come late to fandoms, SJA and Merlin are notable exceptions.

Everyone already talked about this. And my brain doesn't work so well just now because it wants sleep. So, just one thing.

I'm pretty sure the series has a lot more than teh mega slash potential.
As you know, I like slash, but I'm not a real slasher, being equally interested in het, femslash, polyfic and sometimes even in non-shippy stuff if it's good.
When I decide whether I really like a TV or comics series, these days I seem to be all about the teams - the 'main cast' and the chemistry between them, plus the location where it all takes place. Both is brilliant here; all the characters rock. Camelot and the whole (fanfic!)legendary scenario draws me in.
This might also have to do with my other fandoms at the moment, most of which seem to include Excalibur, Great Britain or at least fairies. And yes, of course there are lots of crossovers in my head.

The only thing on TV that is as great as Merlin is The Sarah Jane Adventures. It is so wonderful, I have no words. (I'm so in love with Sarah Jane.) If you like one of these series, you should watch the other. They have the same strenghts and so far none of the weaknesses most other TV programmes show.
I am proud to say:

MY FANDOMS CAN APOLOGIZE WHEN THEY DID SOMETHING MEAN. MY FANDOMS CAN SAY THANK YOU WHEN THEIR FRIENDS SAVED THEIR LIVES. MY FANDOMS CAN MAKE THEIR FANS HAPPY.

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Now, dragons.

I adopted the green egg; the orange one is Fyr and Sajasi's child.
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PS: Someone should push me to write some of the fic that's in my head, now that I finally have a little time. Tomorrow hopefully I'll have my own computer again, plugged into my old ugly-looking monitor that's too big for my flat, let alone my table. Means I'll be able to communicate. Remind me. :)

I'd love to share my state of mind right now, but I'm not sure that's possible. It feels... really creative, jungle-like, hot with lots of intense dreams about love and adventure.
Completely chaotic, tired, filled with information. Bearing text and being born from text.
Why was I ever afraid of this? Revolutionary ideas are born out of textual overdose, too much visual input (at least in my case).

The thesis, though: not so revolutionary, with more loose ends than anything else, and tying them up is the most difficult thing, because there is always more, of course, and the only technique I know to make a chapter come to an end is polemics, which is pretty much forbidden in academic work. I think. Couldn't manage without it nevertheless.

It is almost finished. (Finished? I don't know 'finished'.) And it's not. It's raw, bloody, too short, the chapter order makes no sense. It's not saying anything new, but it's collecting and trying out things. I like it, in a way - even if it screws up, it's still my child.

What it gave me, examples.: A NaNo idea. Knowledge, to serve as a basis for further study. The realization that I still want to be a scholar. Good times with good literature. Reminded me of my weird desire to connect all the dots on a map. Manga and comics fandom. A thousand beginnings for just as many possible projects. Knowledge, about the way I work.
I don't know if I can do it, yet.

So.
kelpie667, I know I said you'd get the document in September, well, I didn't manage, obviously. Do you want the total chaos early on Wednesday, or the chaos with an actual ending later on Wednesday? Sorry for the delay. I'm delay incorporated.

Sleep now. Another exhilarating workday tomorrow. Before that: more dreams of eternal love.
All in all: yay.

They have all gone quite insane. It is fun to behold, so far.
But they should really try and get some costumes soon, all with the X-storylines and stuff.

( spoilers and a bit of a rant )

*returns to the real superheroes and mutants now*

Alright then, finally.

If you see this, post a quote from Stargate Atlantis in your journal

"I really thought there’d be more hot girls."

So, everyone is reading and reccing SGA Big Bang fic.
Not me, of course. I'll be getting to that, but right now I'm busy *cough*
... digging through older Marvel fanfic. In my free time! I still have free time! It's not September yet.

What I actually wanted to say is:
Yesterday I read some of the best porn EVER. I would like to recommend it to you.

crimsonquills: Context is Everything is a 2k PWP.
It has: Steve Rogers, Tony Stark and the Iron Man armor (!!). While I know that almost nobody on my friendslist knows this fandom, I think that maybe really good porn (with armor!!) can still be really good porn (with armor!!!) even if you don't know who you're reading about. And some of you probably know the Iron Man movie, so you can just imagine that Tony has a nice blond boyfriend named Steve (who happens to be Captain America, but that doesn't have to be the point for you).
Context is Everything also did have quite a few (textual, not sexual) attributes that I don't usually go for in porn, but here not only did they not keep me from enjoying the fic, but I think I might have started to think of them as comletely plausible and natural and erotic. I cannot recommend this enough.

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Some other rather random stuff:

- Iron Man was at the GC. Well, okay, probably he just placed his armor there and didn't visit the GC himself, but.

- I have a slight language/ terminology problem: "trope" =/= "Tropus". "trope" = "Topos" ?? Does anybody know that?

- ???

Dearest thesis. Please come and sweep me away, save me from the tragedy and misery that is Cap/Iron Man. Or else I have to write resurrection!fic, and as you well know I can't do that now because I have to spend time with you, love. So I beg you, be smooth and beautiful under my fingertips. Let me love you. Make my head alive with ideas and clear with logic. Let's have the week of our lives together. I know I can't give you commitment, but I can give you pleasure. I truly want you. Bestow on me this dance. L.




[PS, to flist: Please don't ask how far I've come by now. Thanks.]

Dear flist, I'm in dire need of some good porn. If anyone could recommend something, I'd be highly grateful.
Preferably Marvel comics, SGA or Doctor Who would also be great, and everything else I know works, too. Even if I don't know the fandom - if you really like the story, lead me to it.
Slash, het, femslash, moresome, I don't really have a preference as long as the story works.
Thanks in advance! *goes back into hiding behind computer screen*

(Of course, you could always write something new... I'm not holding you back... :))

(No spoilers this time.)

I think I found out the reason for Bendis to write Secret Invasion.
It was all to prove that NICK FURY WAS RIGHT all along.

Am surprised to see how much fun Captain Britain and MI-13 is. Avalon in a superhero comic, it's just... colourful and british and more than a bit weird. Awesome. Will have to continue reading the series, which makes that 3 per month.

The comic shop owner says that mostly people in their twenties buy comics, when they get older they stay away. It sounds almost as if he'd think it to be fate, that you can't read comics anymore when you turn thirty, you just can't, like it's a paradox that can't be solved. I wonder if on my 30th birthday I suddenly turn into a different person and stop being interested in geeky stuff. Sounds like a nightmare.

I just watched the 1998 Nick Fury TV movie with David Hasselhoff, and contrary to all my expectations I LOVED it. It was great fun to watch, had everything a film about S.H.I.E.L.D. needs: the helicarrier, LMDs, HYDRA and little espionage movie gimmicks. Val (whom I don't really know much about yet but will soon). And David Hasselhoff can actually act - he did a great job with his role as Nick Fury, down to the details. Of course the film was a bit trashy; the German villains were hilarious (in a good way!) But I never would have thought that I could believe Hasselhoff when he'd try to pretend to be Colonel Fury, and I did. I forgot about that wrecked actor who is mostly looked down upon and regarded as a joke and I saw Nick. (It scared me a bit, really.) The other characters were also quite believable.

Plus: FUN!!! :)

Before we watched the movie we walked to the Dönerladen (what's it called?), so I had lots of time to think about nutty crossovers. My favourites are:

1. UNIT vs. S.H.I.E.L.D. (UNIT loses to SHIELD in a second, only to discover that all SHIELD members have been replaced by Live Model Decoys which the Doctor can switch off.)

2. The Tsubasa and xxxHolic characters travel to Marvel-universe. I didn't explore this one further, or maybe I did, but I forgot about it. Yuuko should meet Doctor Strange, of course, to see who's the Sorcerer Supreme, and to talk about not being able to intervene. Oh, and I think there was something in my head about the Doctor coming to the Marvelverse - ah, yes! I remember --

3. Daleks vs. Doombots. Still taking bets. What do you say, who will win?

Did anyone of you by any chance read the Marvel Secret War storyarc?
Just as I always do, I read it years too late, and I think most people won't be too thrilled about resurrecting a four year old discussion. Still, it's a rather important storyline, and I'm having a hard time making sense of a few things, especially decisions certain characters made. Very probably those decisions weren't written to make sense but rather to make the story work in a way the author wanted it to go, but I don't tend to accept 'plot-device' as an argument for anything if there's no internal explanation for it in the text.
I've been waiting for ranor to read it and help me out, but now that he's finished it he just tells me that 'well, they just wrote it that way. *shrug*' He acknowledges it was 'Spielleiterwillkür' (♥) but just doesn't seem to be as obsessed with Nick Fury as I am and so it doesn't seem to bug him as much as it does me. ;)

I need someone to discuss this with me, please.

Also, I had in mind to write something profound about current things, and thinky meta stuff, but... hmpf... maybe later.

I NEEDZ TO ANALAIZ TEKSTS NAU. not comicks. an no make iconses. really.

Until tonight at 2.00 (I think - it's 0.00 GMT) you can still claim prompts at marveloustales.
There are lots of Runaways and Young Avengers prompts, and I seem to remember that there actually might be some people on my friendslist who are into that stuff. ;)

Some examples: ( meaning: what I would like to read )

(Why are there so many canon-ships in my examples? *sigh*)

Going back to work now. No, really.

I'm in love with Fuyumi Souryo.
Yesterday I read Cesare, the nine chapters that have been translated so far, and being completely hooked by it I searched for the mangaka's other works and came upon Eternal Sabbath. Oh my. It doesn't have swords or magic, BUT it does have a plot, great characters, including one of the most interesting heroines I've seen in years, and moral dilemmata and character development... and while dealing quite a lot with thoughts about 'human existence' and other psychological and philosophical issues, it is never shallow or immature.
Apart from that - I just love Fuyumi's artwork. In Cesare, the detailed and vivid pictures pulled me right into the scenery of 15th century Pisa - I'm nothing of a history geek (sadly), but if my history lessons would have been like that, I sure I would have become one. Eternal Sabbath is not as stunning, but nevertheless still beautiful and exact, which fits the setting and characters (Kujou Mine ♥ is a neurologist, and, well, I'm not telling you anything about the other characters :)).


And now for something completely different - adressing the thousands of Tamora Pierce fans on my friendslist. xavie wrote a short Alanna/Harry Potter crossover for the otw_onlinecon-Fannish Past Challenge. The second part of this challenge says to cross your first fandom with your current fandom. Does anyone want to do it, too? There are certainly not enough crossovers in the world. I'm planning to write a short crossover, too, but I'm not sure if I'll manage it, I don't really seem to be in control of myself at the moment. (Where's that next chapter? Ah! *opens comic reader*)

1. Reading an ongoing manga series is clearly not the right hobby for me. Those chapters are awfully short.

2. What's the wank about? I heard that the fandom's reaction to this chapter must have been an uproar, but I'm not quite getting why that is. Probably there's some important detail I didn't understand. So... ( here be spoilers )

In other news, I have visitors for the WGT, but they're at a party now, so I can be at home alone doing nerdy stuff.
I made a new character for pen&paper rpg (DSA) who was inspired by TRC's Sakura. She has red hair, big blue-green eyes and is very cute. And a magician whose specialty is mind-control (für die ExpertInnen: eine Fasarer Beherrschungsmagierin). I enjoyed playing her so much, I have no idea how I managed without her.

After having told several people (including myself) truthfully that my days in Potter fandom were over, today I was suddenly overcome with the urge to read Potter next gen fic. Where the hell did that come from? Maybe I will succumb to it later tonight.
Oh! I know! At lgbtfest I read this story about Albus Severus coming out to his parents. Which I liked. Or was it before?...

Completely unrelated - I have no idea how I survived the semester break without regular Iaido training. The training session yesterday was fantastic, and can I please to this several hours every day? Without being interrupted by the requirements of "grown up life"? (Although I'm getting along with my 'duties' at the moment. Thesis is nice to me.)

Now, the real reason for posting: kelpie667 tagged me in a meme (thanks, dear, I needed the excuse!).

List ten fictional characters you would have sex with (in no particular order) and tag five people to do the same.

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I don't want to tag anyone at the moment, I'm not awake enough to decide who would like to be tagged and who wouldn't. Just tell me, will you?
The meme would have been much easier had I filled all the spots (but one) with Doctor Who characters. I tried not to.